Another closed chapter.

Yet another chapter of my life has ended. It's painful, no doubt. And I cried. Many comforted me, consoled me, but I know it is something that I can only get through it myself. But I'm thankful of the friends who texted me, thankful for the friends who care for me. And I hope that those who genuinely cared, our friendship will go on for a long time.

When that part of life was over, I used work to numb myself. I work harder than before, cos I know it is the only thing that is able to keep my mind off all of these. But at the same time, I find myself liking this line of job. No doubt it's tough and requires more physical work than others but I believe it is something I would want to have as my job. Probably some might think that I spoil market by coming back to help on off days or that I'm trying to bootlick my bosses and stuff. Well, if you're thinking this way, then continue thinking that way cos petty people will only lead to their own downfall.

Also, I realised that the only constant in my life is family. Cos no matter what happens, they'd welcome you back with open arms. Although the words they say may be mean at times but know that they want the best for you.

I haven't had the courage to tell my parents what really happened cos I'm afraid of crying in front of them. It's not because of pride, but it's because I wouldn't want them to worry about me. Being parents, they already have enough to worry about and I wouldn't want to break down in front of them and give them severe heartaches.

Some have tried to get me to go back to that part of life and I am going to say it right here that no, I can't. It's not because there isn't any love anymore. It's because of the loss in mutual understanding and acceptance. And I'm glad there are friends out there who gave me sound advice and encourage me to meet them up so that I wouldn't be so depressed.

Now, listening to emotional songs means dying on the inside and being at places with memories means more heart ache. It takes time, I know. And if you're reading this, I'm letting you go because letting go is also a form of love. I feel that you're better off with someone more understanding than me and someone who has a much better temper than me.

And to all the lovely readers out there, stay sweet if you're attached and stay happy if you aren't.

Second week of school.

Sorry I was gone for like almost 2 weeks! These 2 weeks I've been busy spending my time with the BGLDL clique and we spent most of our time outdoors. Not forgetting the ridiculous amount of money we're spending! I think I spent like almost $80 in 3 days. Omg, I'm a damn spendthrift. Thank goodness my first pay cheque is here. Waiting for my second and third ones!

In life, people come and go and at most of the time, we can't do anything about it. I hate it, no doubt. But it's a part of life and it can't be prevented. All we can do is just sulk or fret over why we lose this friend or person and then move on in life. For me, I treasure the friends I have now. Yes, I've made mistakes in the past that caused me to lose friends that I never wanted to lose. I blame myself for that, but I can't do anything. So I really treasure the friends I'm having now. But somehow, under certain circumstances, people still push themselves away from you. It hurts not being able to be as close than before, but it's their mentality and they have their reasons to push themselves away from you. Just wanna tell everyone out there to cherish the friends you have now for good things don't last. They don't usually last.

Anyways, first week of school was really nothing much. Just going through CA briefs and having some ice breaker games that we pretty much do every single year. It's gonna be a stressful year, I know, cos it's only the first week and we're already talking about projects and Final Year Project (FYP). Not forgetting that I'll be having my ITP soon, which will last for 3 months and makes up 17 credit units. So if I get a B for this, that's it. I'm so gonna cry my eyeballs out. Hope things will go well for my last year cos I really wanna graduate with at least a 3.0 GPA. I'd be satisfied with that!

Shall end the post with a photo of me and my lovely friend, Peiling! <3 Tata lovelies!