Oops!

Sorry lovelies, that I was gone, again, for a long time. Well, school's hectic. So is life.

Life hasn't been really great for me but I didn't mention any of it to anyone other than my boyfriend. So I guess that's why I've been having really bad tempers and blasting my fury onto him. A question has been bugging me for a god damn long time. Which I think a lot of people do too, which is why do friends leave or backstab even though you put in so much effort to maintain that friendship? I admit, at times I've done things or mistakes that caused my friends to push me away. I do not blame them for the mistakes I've made. But I do wonder about those who just suddenly, for no reason, push themselves away from me. Frankly speaking, I treasure friendship a lot. Really, a lot. And I do love some of my friends as if they're my brothers and sisters. But somehow, somewhere, something goes wrong which I don't know what and they're gone before I know it. I keep asking myself, is it my fault? Is it something about me that chase them away? Some told me, people take me for granted. They just use me and they're gone when they find no value in me. Is it true? I really hope it isn't. Cos I don't wish to think any of them this way.

Family has also been an issue for me. Fretting over it a lot but nothing can be done. I'm not gonna go into so much details cos well, it's family.

I just hope I can go away from all of these for a few days to somewhere out of Singapore and have no contact with anyone else. Just me, boyfriend and maybe a few close friends. That's all I hope for. Really. Cos right now, a getaway is what I really yearn for. Desperately.

Bye, my lovelies. Hope you guys are not as stressful as me right now!