Not easy.

Life is never easy.

It's never easy. And as a teenager, I have a whole lot of things to worry about. Or should I say, it applies to most of the teenagers. Friends, boyfriend, family, schoolwork and health.

School has been really mad these days. With the huge amount of projects to be done, stress starts to kick in as I start having headaches so serious that I feel like vomiting. Why? Well, the current number of projects to be done is five and each project carries a huge amount of percentage to the final GPA of that module.

My GPA for my first year is bad enough. I don't want to be disappointed with my results once again. Although I have no intentions of getting into a local University, I still hope to obtain at least a GPA of 3.3 so that I can have the chance to study overseas. At first, I have no intention of continuing my studies at all. I was determined to work right after I get my diploma but he changed my mind. When he said he wants to go to University, I start to think if I should do the same too. But I know that studying media in local Universities are not of much help. So if I were to go to University, I'd be going overseas to study. But first, after I get my diploma, I'm going to try out at Mediacorp to gain experience. I think that in order to understand the things that will be taught at University, I should go through the real thing for a few years so that I would know why am I studying this and how it is going to apply to the real world.

So anyways, the massive amount of projects really stress me out. I tried all sorts of de-stress methods but somehow it only works for a really short period of time. I guess what I really need is a proper break from SP and all of my electronic devices, even if it's just for one day.

Then, I've been having really frequent diarrhea. It kind of started last month and today it was terrible. I came to the conclusion that I've been eating too much all of a sudden these few days. My stomach may not be able to take in a huge amount of food all of a sudden and thus I just keep having diarrhea. It sucks like mad basically. Because I have to keep rushing to the toilet whenever I feel a storm brewing in my stomach. And my headache is killing me as well. Just popped a panadol extra but it seems to be ineffective. Shall pop another one later.

And to my dear boyfriend, I love you and I'll always be here, whether you need me or not.

Alright, I gotta continue doing my Mass Media Research project now. It's so taxing but I still have to do it for the sake of my grades. And my future.