Help.

Whenever my classmates ask,"Not going out with your boyfriend?" I'd say,"No, he's busy." And they'd tell me if he really loves me, he'd really take time out to accompany me.

Every time I hear that sentence, my heart hurts.

The last time we met was 2 weeks ago. And these 2 weeks was really torturous for me. There was so much work. All the pressure built up in me. And I know that it'll only go away if I see him. But he wasn't free. So for the past 2 weeks, I just keep crying and crying because it's the only way I can de-stress. Temporarily. Even though we text each other everyday and talk on the phone, but nothing beats seeing him in person.

想念太多，觉得心酸，然后心痛。

Sometimes, I'd think, are you thinking of me? Cos I really miss you so much.

And sometimes, I'd stupidly hope that you'd appear at my doorstep to surprise me. Or that you'd suddenly ask me if I'm free to meet or if I want to have lunch/dinner with you. I guess, it's just me and my wishful thinking.

Shall sleep to let these negative thoughts go away.

I'm tired. Physically and mentally.