Nearing the end.

Probably it's something good for all the other interns out there but not me. Yes, my internship is ending. And I'm upset about it cos of a few reasons.

1. Now I have to fret about my future. Being an intern means I don't have to worry about my future. Yet. But now I'm ending my internship, which means I'm graduating soon, I will have to worry about what I should work as my permanent career since I'm not going to University. Currently, I'm interning at Showmakers, an event management company which actually takes care of technical aspects of an event which are audio, visual and lighting. I am hoping that I can continue my internship here, provided that my bosses are willing to! -cross my fingers-

2. I can't bear to leave the people. Yes, I really can't bear to. Throughout this period of almost 3 months, I've made a few friends there and they've taught me quite a lot about how to survive when working and the skills needed for AVL. I still have a lot to learn, definitely. Cos for one, I'm pretty much a slow learner. And also, I have an amazingly small memory space which according to quite a handful of people, is the size of a pea.

Every day on Twitter and Facebook, I see rants of other interns hoping their internship would end quickly. But somehow when I read those tweets, I always hope that it wouldn't end so quickly so that I wouldn't fret so much about my future.

Although working drains me a lot both physically and mentally, I believe that it just makes me a stronger person than before again, both physically and mentally. I think being an intern has allowed me to be exposed to the things that one can never, ever learn from the books. I learnt that no matter what you do, there will always be people who can criticise about it. An example, you work hard in hope to excel in this but others see it as you trying to get better grades than others or say that you 'spoil market'. I've come to listen and not take it to heart cos these are the people who want to see you fall into this dark pit whereby you just get swallowed in self-pity. And most of the time, these are the people who are pretty much not giving much to the company.

Also, I learnt that socialising is important. I may come across as anti-social or shy to strangers. Which is why when I'm doing events alone or with someone I don't know, I tend to shut myself from the world. But socialising is important because knowing people from the same industry might just benefit you at times when you needed help the most.

THERE WILL ALWAYS BE BACKSTABBERS/GOSSIPERS. This is a fact that everyone knows yet some will never know how to avoid themselves in landing this kinda shit. So what one can do, is just not explain themselves to anyone but the people who matter the most in that situation. If it's about your work quality, explaining to the boss will do. Cos others don't matter.

Alright, my typing speed is getting a little slower than usual, which means it's nearing the end of this post. I'm sorry for the infrequent activity here cos I'm really busy with work and off days mean plenty of sleep to me, so yeap. Hope you guys would stay tuned though, for future posts. If not, you may add me up on Twitter and/or Instagram for my daily rants and photos of work and whatsoever. My username is Zhiyin_g. Don't be shy to interact with me yeah?

Stay safe and happy, my lovelies. Bye! X