Another closed chapter.

Yet another chapter of my life has ended. It's painful, no doubt. And I cried. Many comforted me, consoled me, but I know it is something that I can only get through it myself. But I'm thankful of the friends who texted me, thankful for the friends who care for me. And I hope that those who genuinely cared, our friendship will go on for a long time.

When that part of life was over, I used work to numb myself. I work harder than before, cos I know it is the only thing that is able to keep my mind off all of these. But at the same time, I find myself liking this line of job. No doubt it's tough and requires more physical work than others but I believe it is something I would want to have as my job. Probably some might think that I spoil market by coming back to help on off days or that I'm trying to bootlick my bosses and stuff. Well, if you're thinking this way, then continue thinking that way cos petty people will only lead to their own downfall.

Also, I realised that the only constant in my life is family. Cos no matter what happens, they'd welcome you back with open arms. Although the words they say may be mean at times but know that they want the best for you.

I haven't had the courage to tell my parents what really happened cos I'm afraid of crying in front of them. It's not because of pride, but it's because I wouldn't want them to worry about me. Being parents, they already have enough to worry about and I wouldn't want to break down in front of them and give them severe heartaches.

Some have tried to get me to go back to that part of life and I am going to say it right here that no, I can't. It's not because there isn't any love anymore. It's because of the loss in mutual understanding and acceptance. And I'm glad there are friends out there who gave me sound advice and encourage me to meet them up so that I wouldn't be so depressed.

Now, listening to emotional songs means dying on the inside and being at places with memories means more heart ache. It takes time, I know. And if you're reading this, I'm letting you go because letting go is also a form of love. I feel that you're better off with someone more understanding than me and someone who has a much better temper than me.

And to all the lovely readers out there, stay sweet if you're attached and stay happy if you aren't.

Oops!

Sorry lovelies, that I was gone, again, for a long time. Well, school's hectic. So is life.

Life hasn't been really great for me but I didn't mention any of it to anyone other than my boyfriend. So I guess that's why I've been having really bad tempers and blasting my fury onto him. A question has been bugging me for a god damn long time. Which I think a lot of people do too, which is why do friends leave or backstab even though you put in so much effort to maintain that friendship? I admit, at times I've done things or mistakes that caused my friends to push me away. I do not blame them for the mistakes I've made. But I do wonder about those who just suddenly, for no reason, push themselves away from me. Frankly speaking, I treasure friendship a lot. Really, a lot. And I do love some of my friends as if they're my brothers and sisters. But somehow, somewhere, something goes wrong which I don't know what and they're gone before I know it. I keep asking myself, is it my fault? Is it something about me that chase them away? Some told me, people take me for granted. They just use me and they're gone when they find no value in me. Is it true? I really hope it isn't. Cos I don't wish to think any of them this way.

Family has also been an issue for me. Fretting over it a lot but nothing can be done. I'm not gonna go into so much details cos well, it's family.

I just hope I can go away from all of these for a few days to somewhere out of Singapore and have no contact with anyone else. Just me, boyfriend and maybe a few close friends. That's all I hope for. Really. Cos right now, a getaway is what I really yearn for. Desperately.

Bye, my lovelies. Hope you guys are not as stressful as me right now!